How i wish you were here,

Guzel gecen bir gecenin ardindan, tarih dikkatinizi ceker
 ve
birden gozleriniz dolar,
bogazinizda birseyler bogum bogum olup bogrunuzu aciyla kasar,
Sag gozunuzden uc,
Sol gozunuzden bir damla yas duser...

Evet,cok arabeskvari gelebilir ama babanizi kaybetmenizin acisi kelimelerle ifade edilemeyecegi icin,boylesine kuru bir betimleme sadece alt yazi gibi duygusuz gelecektir.

Dogum gunun kutlu olsun Baba'cigim,
Geri gelmeyecegini bilsem de,seni ozlemeye son veremiyorum...

After a lovely night, the date will take your attention,
and
Your eyes will be tearful,
You feel  that the pain actually hurts your throat and your ilium,because of holding yourself,
Maybe three drop of tears from the right and one drop of tear from the left one,

Yeah, it may sound a bit shallow the way i am trying to describe but there is no such an a word can actually explain the pain of losing your dad,therefore ;this kind of dusty depiction can look like a subtitles with no feeling.

Happy Birthday Daddy,
Even if i know that you won't come back,i can not stop missing you...

Ne guzel bir sarkidir bu....

Yavrum icin,For my little one..

Yedi sene once bugun,gorebilecegim en guzel canliyi kollarima aldim.
Boylesine kirilgan,minik,tapilasi,guzel varligi aylarca nasil da karnimda tasimisim,nasil beslemisim...ben bile kendime inanamamistim.

Sana olan sevgimi kelimelerle tarif etmem mumkun bile degil...

Guzel gozlerini,kucuk disli agzini,kestirmedigin tirnaklarini,yumuk gamzeli  ellerini,kirmizi yanaklarini,dugme gibi minicik burnunu,inatci saclarini,kollarini,bacaklarini her yerini tek tek opmeye doyamiyorum.Her gecen gun beni daha cok sasirtiyorsun,beni buyuluyorsun...

Seni cok cok cok ama cok seviyorum Oglum..

Dogum gunun kutlu olsun yavrularin en guzeli,bi'tanem benim.

Seven yrs ago today, i took into my arms  the most beautiful baby  i have ever seen in my life.
I couldn't even believe to myself that how i could feed and  carry in my belly   this beautiful,fragile,so little and adorable baby for  months.

It is not possible to describe with words  how much i love you...

I can not  get enough kissing your beautiful eyes,your mouth with small teeth,your nails that you don't let me cut,your red cheeks,chubby dimpled hands, your small pointy nose,your stubborn hair,your arms,your legs...You are amazing me everyday more and bewitching me as well...

I love you very very very much my son...

Happy birthday  the most beautiful nestling,my dearest one.

Bugün "senin" doğum günün-Today is your birthday !

Baba'...dogum gunun kutlu olsun.. 

Benim icin hala hayattasin,hala telefonun bir ucundasin....seni korkunc bir sekilde ozledim..

Dad,Happy Birthday...

For me,you are still alive like i can reach you by phone...i miss you terribly...